Count down to Graduation

I am a kid who was born with so much  ambition with me.  Before I  have dream to be scientist, astronaut and  to be doctor.  I remember when I was an elementary student, I am not sleeping after lunch because  I was busy doing handicrafts out of the materials that I gather  inside our backyard and if I am not doing handicrafts I am busy unscrewing gadgets or charger that is not working, expecting i can fix it myself. My Grandmother once told me “Kung ano ano nanaman yang inimbento mo”,  and my mother called me “siraniko”  because instead of fixing things I most likely break it even more.  In elementary I graduated with so much ribbons that we pay  for 50 pesos each, that is how in our elementary school  at the Barangay , you pay for the ribbons you get. I don't know if its still the same way today. In short that's how I am in elementary ,“delinquent”  that I just graduated with paid ribbons.  In high school things have changed,  I am forced to be more focus and active in school activities. Thanks to all the people who forced me to study well, I learned to be mature,  I learned to see things in a deeper perspective, I  learned to love raising my hand to participate to the class discussion,  I learned to love writing, I even join the  journalism and compete with other schools. I was also involved in science investigatory project that won up to regional. I was proud whenever I remember that we become the champion in the division speech choir competition and  had the chance to represent our  city and district in the regionals at Tarlac province.  Because of so much exposure in competitions, I started to dream big, I also started to see my future after studying. I promised myself that I will make my family proud.  I always tell my mother that I will build her a house and a supermarket, I promise my father that we will have his own furniture shop.  Just like that four  years in high school goes to fast and I graduate as the “Third Honorable Mention”. 

I was full of hope and determination when I step into college. But I was struck with the sudden change of the environment. Being a college student was never easy. Professors are not spoon feeding anymore and there are times that you don't fear the subject but professors who  make it difficult. There were sleepless nights, there were so much rush works and there are thesis that would certainly make you cry for  so much frustrations. Now that I am applying the knowledge I have from 7 semesters as an OJT,  its the pressure’s time to come on my senses.  Three months from now I have to attend to my graduation rights. This is it, the final stage of my student life. Lets not count first the masters degree since I am not thinking of taking it now. Now that the end is near, I have doubts in my mind. Will I get a good job after graduation? Can I build my mothers dream house? Can I help her stand a supermarket? Can I support my fathers dream of having his own furniture shop?  There are so much things I doubt.  Every night i pray to God to give me enough strength to pull through all the things I doubt I can do.  A friend of mine told me “Praying is not enough . You must do your part too. Magtiwala ka lang,  magsikap at maghintay dadating din ang tamang opportunity para sayo”. This lines lessen the weight of my doubts, thanks teacher Kenneth. My mother told me not to take all the burdens immediately, “di ka namin minamadali, di porket gradweyt ka na ay ikaw na ang bahala sa lahat. Bumwelo ka muna”. And that is all I need to hear, doubts are gone.

Until the graduation rights takes place all I have to do is to give my best and hold still to the dream I have in me and everything will fall into its right place.